We’re flying to the U.K. next week.
Without an itinerary.
Without any plans.
This is a big deal.
In fact, this is a huge deal!
Anyone who suffers from anxiety will understand that the unknown can be terrifying. Seeds of worry and fear take root and before you know it you’re imagining everything that could happen, everything that could go wrong.
In the past, I planned every trip down to the smallest detail. Nothing was left to chance. I researched, analyzed, and planned every possible scenario. Hotels and restaurants were booked well in advance. I knew where to go, how to get there, and what we would do when we got there.
Worry was my constant companion and it left me mentally drained.
Everyone assumed I enjoyed the planning, but the truth was that I had to plan it. It was what I had to do to manage my anxiety. Knowing that I had planned everything beforehand helped me deal with the anxious thoughts that plagued me. It was like putting on armour, if I could anticipate everything beforehand I felt like I at least stood a fighting chance.
But that was then, and this is now.
This trip is a big deal because it proves how far I’ve come. I have no idea where we will go or where we will stay. We will go where the wind blows us and I’m perfectly fine with that. In fact, I’m excited.
I’ve come a long way baby!
